It was the ‘loudest’ I
had ever heard in a long time. It was freaking scary. I wanted to close my eyes
but couldn’t because at the same time I wanted to witness what happens. The bus
that carried my friends and I loses control and flies over a ditch. Only my
friends are hurt. Myself, the driver and the rest of the passengers are not affected. The driver
looks at me with an indifferent face and immediately tells me that I was to
blame for the accident. He then jumps out of the bus and calls the other
passengers at a distance. They starts talking is low tones. The driver comes
back and tells me I was NOT to blame for anything .He then orders me out of the
bus and takes me to sit on a raised rock a few meters away from the scene while
the rest of the passengers are discussing in low tones. Guilt conscious creeps in; I am scared,
confused and I can no longer see my friends. One of the passengers walks
towards me and asks, “why is the driver blaming you for the accident?’ I raised my head up and told her I did not understand either. She then goes back and
joins the rest of the passengers. The driver walks back to me again and assures
me that I was not to blame. He soon goes back to the crowd and continues with
the discussion. Soon I see one of my friends who was slightly hurt and I ask her to go
ask them why they blamed me for the accident. As soon as she gets there, the
driver and the passengers turn against her with stones. She then runs towards
me …shouting, ‘let’s run, let’s run, lets run Dinah….’ The crowd is very fast
and they are almost catching up with us! I immediately wake up .., looks at my
clock and its 3.36 AM. Phew! It was just a bad dream!
I soon recall that
during the week I had came close to an accident and it could have influenced my
dream. So I sit up and reflect on the dream and relate it to the many ‘accidents’
that happen in everyday life. The truth of the matter is that sometimes
things just happen; we find ourselves involved but cannot tell how... Many times we blame ourself for things we have no control over. Whether it’s
the accident or the passengers talking in low tones, or other factors in life.
Once a mishap happens
in our life, we tend to feel so crippled. Our emotions are drained,
relationships strained, finances depleted. That’s normal. Its very obvious you almost want to blame
yourself for what you did or did not do. Do not do that .It’s okay to cry,
mourn or feel sorry about the accident. Do not be ashamed of the tears, even
the strongest person needs someone every often to take their hand and assure
them that everything will be okay. All
the same we cannot stop living because an accident happened; No. we have to
move on and yes I understand sometimes it’s very hard to move on, but once you
do, you will realize it was the best decision you ever made. When mishaps
happen in life God will send friends who will run with you during that time. These
friends are not always seen just like the starts; however they are more visible
at night when you need them most.
So what to do after an
accident, you ask? Keep going, do not stop traveling ever. Keep at it.... If you can not run just walk...just make sure you are on the move. Travel as much as
you can, as far as you can, as long as you can. Life’s not meant to be lived in
one place. But above all embrace reality that an accident happened .Sometimes
you have to accept the fact that certain things may never go back to how they
used to be. All the same No winter lasts forever, no spring skips it turn;
nobody can go back and begin a new beginning, but anyone can start today and
make a new ending. ‘It’s never too late to jump into a new bus in life.
Love unconditionally,
forgive easily. If you are the driver, a co-driver or a passenger in the bus, do
not blame anyone for any accident in life. It was not their fault. Practice kindness,
it makes you the most beautiful person in the world no matter what you look
like. Be a rainbow in someone else cloud. Be nice to all including those who
do not like you in the bus of life. That does not make you fake, it only
means you are mature enough to tolerate their dislike. Sometimes life accidents
make us stronger because we have to be. So be strong. You will realize most
strong people in life may not have an easy past.so you are one of the strongest of this world.
Never, ever get rid of
the desire to climb a tree just because you fell once. Never lose sleep over
something that isn’t worth staying awake for. It’s absolutely OK to appreciate
that some days are just harder than others.The truth is that It will soon be just another chapter in your
success story. The best revenge in life’s accidents is the success in overcoming obstacles
It’s now 5: 24 am and I
have to go back to bed.
By Dinah Muthuka (Un edited)
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